im hoping and praying and wishing and wanting, as i do some soul searching..looking through my minds eye..deep truths, packed so tight, never to return to the surface. what is it? what is it about? old pain, new pain, hurt and anger stacked on each other, deep in my soul. and as i search i see the wanting and the hoping just become objects occupying space in a crowed and uneasy soul. no joy here. no love here. and as i search deep, soul searching, looking for answers..well i see the wishing and the wanting collecting dust. no real purpose, never finding the answers to any of the questions. so the anxiety builds and the depression sets in because the soul searching hasnt led to anything promising. more hurt and anger and pain,,and no answers. hoping and wishing and praying and wanting but never receiving.